moody

So I've been kind of moody lately. I'm getting excited for my trip tomorrow back east. I'm looking forward to meeting so many new people, but I'm also inevitably a bit nervous. I mean, I'm not going to let it grow, but I know it'll be there until I finally meet everyone. I'm also prepared for all sorts of questions about my intentions, what I do for work, what my plans are for the future, etc.. But I'm also feeling like there's a bit of depression coming on. Maybe? I've never been good at telling, I just know when people tell me that I'm depressed, I don't really know what they're talking about. And I'm worried a bit again. And I'm tired of being overweight, especially now that I've been progressing so much and feeling so much better. Maybe I need more sleep. I've been deprived of that lately.

Speaking of Moody, I've been thinking some of going back to school again. I don't know if I can, is the thing. There are finances and there is the little thing about flunking out last time. Maybe it's just self-confidence, but I don't know what I want yet. If I go for religious studies or bible or something like that, though, it will be well spent money. Even if it doesn't help with a job, it'll help me with my Walk, and that's a good thing. More thoughts. I need to pray more.