jealous musician?

Sometimes I get to be jealous as a musician. I mean, I see what other people are doing, and think, "why can't I be more like that," or, "I could do that; that person's not all that good." But I'm not willing to put in the time necessary to practice like I want to. And when I do practice, I don't spend the time learning the stuff that those people know, even the I know I could learn much of it fairly quickly. I have an innate talent for music, but I'm not as responsible about it as I should be. I don't spend the time to develop it

The other thing I was realizing is that I'm too worried sometimes about pleasing other people. I mean, most of making it as a musician is pleasing other people, writing music that they'll like. But what I mean is, sometimes I get way too much into thinking, "if I could only play like this musician or that musician," or, "if I could only make a song like this one." Funny thing is, even when I think that way, I don't usually take the time to learn the song and try to figure out what it is that I like about it. But, I need to figure out what my own style is, because that's what will make me me. If I try to copy someone else, there's a chance some people will like it, but only for a bit. If I'm not doing anything original, then I will fade more quickly than the fad I'm trying to copy. But if I incorporate the elements I like, and the elements I think are good, then I stand a much better chance of being happy myself, but also of being long-lasting.

Basically, I need to not worry so much.