run away

Sometimes I get the feeling like I want to run away. I mean run away from everything; just get rid of everything except for the things I need that will fit in my car, and drive away. I want to drive west and find someplace where I can live where I don't know anybody, just make new friends and meet new people. Find some job and just start differently.

I don't really know what makes me feel this way, but I've been feeling it all weekend, and still today. I just want to start a new life. Somebody told me once that I could just take a long vacation, but that wouldn't work. I want to go away and have it all be different, not just to take a rest. I don't want to not work, I want to have a different job, somewhere else.

I know I would disappoint friends and family, but sometimes I feel like I'm just about ready to do that. Sometimes I feel like I want to break all ties with my family and friends. I know that would make things pretty hard for me in the future, but I still think about it.